The more time passes, the harder it gets to formulate thoughts into a post. Things have been quiet and fine. The Monster lurks in the background, still commenting here and there on our family blog. Letting it be known that he is alive and well, and watching. But I’ve been mostly [...]
Posts Tagged ‘Monster’
Apologies and Christmas Thoughts
Posted in writing, tagged Angel, apologies, Christmas, father, holidays, Monster, motherhood, parenting, Rebel, sociopath, tradition, writing on December 14, 2007 | 2 Comments »
I haven’t written much lately. I feel I owe an apology to my few but loyal readers. Or an explanation. Only there isn’t a good one. It is more an array of reasons.
First, I have to admit I’ve been a bit petrified by Coco’s nomination for Julie Pippert’s December Class of Amazing New Blogs. While [...]
Three Good Things
Posted in Monster, writing, tagged childhood, empathy, father, husband, integrity, Monster, personality, Rebel, self-analysis, sociopath, three things on November 30, 2007 | 3 Comments »
Recently, fellow blogger Coco wrote a lovely post, describing three things she liked about herself. Any reader of that post could consider themselves tagged to do the same. The challenge in writing these three good things is the focus on the “good”. Being prone to self-deprecation and constant disclaimers, I thought this [...]
Late Night Thoughts
Posted in family, father, tagged Angel, father, love, Monster, parenthood, Rebel, sociopath on November 27, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
It’s late. The house is dark. My two loves are sleeping in the next room. When they slumber, it is astounding how much they look alike. Father and son.
I lie awake in bed, looking at them, one on each side of me.
The Rebel is curled up with one too many pillows, bound [...]
Trauma
Posted in abuse, depression, sociopath, tagged abuse, abusive father, childhood, Monster, psychology, sociopath, trauma, traumatic stress, victim on November 12, 2007 | 1 Comment »
Once in a while, I hear or read words that suddenly make me reevaluate everything I thought I knew about something, someone or myself. Recently, this happened.
Trying to take an active stance in my emotional struggles, I have been doing a lot of research lately, about sociopaths, antisocial personality disorder and behavior, and the [...]
Cloudy Days
Posted in depression, tagged Angel, depression, father, Monster, the dark cloud on November 5, 2007 | 2 Comments »
I’m back from a few days visiting family. It was both wonderful and damaging to see them. My Angel and I stayed at my sister’s house. Marie and her Sweet Pea were lovely hosts and made for some great company. However, seeing my family and being back in that environment always [...]
When Two Worlds Collide
Posted in Monster, marriage, sociopath, tagged abuse, breakthrough, husband, marriage, Monster, personality, psychology, Rebel, sociopath, therapist, therapy on October 25, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
It is both fascinating and terrifying to accept that I have married a man similar to my father. When I realized this a few months into our marriage, I panicked. Suddenly, all I could see was every attribute that my Rebel shared with the Monster. Every similarity glared at me, so obvious [...]
Farewell to the Hippie
Posted in family, tagged break-up, divorce, family, Hippie, Mom, Monster, Pierre, siblings on October 23, 2007 | 2 Comments »
I spoke with my Mom on the phone yesterday. She told me that she and the Hippie were separating. I am heartbroken. For me, a little bit. For him, a lot. Not for my Mom so much, it is her decision. While I know it is not easy for [...]
The Pool
Posted in Monster, tagged cheating, childhood, family, Francine, Marie, Mom, Monster, pool, siblings, Victor on October 22, 2007 | 8 Comments »
When I was about eleven or twelve, my father took us to the pool. The public pool in the nearest big town, about ten minutes from our farmhouse. I had gone there with my school before. It was rare for the Monster to ever perform any typical fatherly duties, so this was a [...]
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